Wow... It's been a hot minute. I have gist too.. Hmm... Probably today or tomorrow... :-) Meanwhile, I'll put up two surveys I took via 'myspace'... I thought they were cute. If they're reading, I tag Diary of a G, Andy, TaureanMinx, Idemili, Olawunmi, Dilch, Onada, Pink Satin and Tori... Then again, if you guys want to, please do... :-)
ONE WORD ANSWERS: PLEASE STICK TO ONE WORD OR HYPHENATED ONES... IT'S THE WHOLE IDEA. :-)
1. Yourself: Friendly
2. Your partner: Non-existent
3. Your hair: Disheveled
4. Your mother: Rock
5. Your father: Pebble
6. Your favorite item: Laptop
7. Your dream last night: :-)
8. Your favorite drink: Sprite
9. Your dream car: Range-Rover
10. The room you are in: Comfortable
11. Your ex: Concluded
12. Your fear: Drowning
13. What you want to be in 10 years: Settled
14. Who you hung out with last night: Jacob
15. What you're not: Unintelligent
16. Muffins: Dry
17: One of your wish list items: Man. :-)
18: Time: Swift
19. The last thing you did: Showered
20. What you are wearing: shorts
21. Your favorite weather: Windy
22. Your favorite book: Worn
23. The last thing you ate: Salmon
24. Your life: Advancing
25. Your mood: Subdued
26. Your best friend: Sleeping
27. What you're thinking about right now: Bed
28. Your car: Functional
29. What you are doing at the moment: Squinting
30. Your summer: Nice
31. Your relationship status: Single
32. What is on your TV: Off
33. What is the weather like: Wet
34. When was the last time you laughed: Earlier
LITTLE KNOWN FACTS:
I got this from my sister via email this morning at work... It's pretty cool..
Directions! Now, Here Is What You Are Supposed To Do...And Please Do Not Spoil The Fun! Hit Forward, Delete My Answers And Type In Your Answers. Tag A Whole Bunch Of People That You Know.. The Theory Is That You Will Learn A Lot Of Little Known Facts About Those You Know. Remember To Check theirs out.
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
I thought I was named after my grandmother on my father's side, but thanks to this questionnaire thingy, I've come to find out my sister actually was... So I guess "No I wasn't"..
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Full blown bawl - Saturday (I re-watched 'Bridge to Terabithia').
Tear filled eyes with minimal sniffling - This morning on my way to work... I was listening to 'The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face' by Celine Dion... What?! It's a great song!!!
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING
Um... I'm indifferent
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT
Turkey
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
One
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yep
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
Noooo... Neverrrrr.. I'm MUCH too sweet.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS
Nope
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Hmm... I’m not sure. I'd like to though
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Frosted Mini Wheats
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Freakishly so, I think.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Chocolate Chip
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Hair and height
15. RED OR PINK?
Red
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My mind... It never stops.
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST
My cousin Buki
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
Sure
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue jeans, black flip flops
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Trail Mix Bar
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW ?
An audio book: Artemis Fowl by Eon Colfer
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Gray
23. FAVORITE SMELLS ?
Clean laundry
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Dell
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU ?
She's my sister.. of course
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Not really into that
27. HAIR COLOR?
Black
28. EYE COLOR?
Black
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yep
30. FAVORITE FOOD ?
I'm not sure. Depends on how hungry I am
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers... For like the millionth time.
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Black
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Depends on who from
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Chocolate Cake
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Idemili or Diary of a G... hopefully. Oh wait!... Pink Satin too... :-)
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND
Dilch... Since that new job, she's been WAAAY busy!! (Don't think I haven't noticed!)
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Which Witch? By Eva Ibotson
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
'Fellowes Microban'... I have NO clue what that means.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT?
To Catch a Predator (PERVERTS!!!!! - One of whom was a school bus driver...*shudder*) and 'Thank you for Smoking' - again
42. FAVORITE SOUND?
Jacob singing to himself in the shower
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles?
44. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME
Here... Home is in a different continent.. *scowl*
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT
Wouldn't you like to know? *leer*... Wait...What am I doing?... My sister sent me this... EWWWWWW!!!
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Nashville TN
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO CHECKING OUT?
Yours
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
Thunder
I love this weather. It's raining and all I hear is the splatter of raindrops and loud claps of thunder. Really loud. Save the glow of my laptop, it's pitch black in here. I had been lying in bed half asleep when a particularly loud thunder clap jerked me awake. I sat up in bed and sat there for a couple of minutes. Just listening to the sounds aside.. :-) Now I'm online writing this... Why? I don't know... It felt right.
I'm going back to bed in a couple of minutes, but before I do that, I'm going to turn off my laptop, curl up on my couch, and watch the rain and the lightning through my wide open window... I know there are people out there who don't believe in God, but on nights like this, how can you not? :-)
I'm going back to bed in a couple of minutes, but before I do that, I'm going to turn off my laptop, curl up on my couch, and watch the rain and the lightning through my wide open window... I know there are people out there who don't believe in God, but on nights like this, how can you not? :-)
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Night ...
4:29 AM
I can't sleep... Oddly enough, I don't want to. I'm not doing anything in particular. Playing online scrabble and listening to this song on repeat... (It's the one playing on my page)... Online scrabble is fun... sometimes. Tonight, it's a lot of fun. I don't know why I'm so alert this late... Usually when I'm up at this time, I'm pretty much on 'drone mode', but I seem to be in my element tonight.
I've been 'wikipedia-ring' a lot too. Tonight I've read up on Euclid, Thor, Robert Hanssen, The KGB, and the legal term 'Tort'. I've recalculated the formulas in my both my weekly and monthly budget/expense sheet spreadsheets... I might have gotten a little carried away with that though; I went a little nuts with the conditional formatting tool... I've messed around with a couple of photographs in Photoshop... that was a LOT of fun... As much as I'd like to, I unfortunately can't post any of them online... That sucks 'cause I think most people (with sense of humors of course) would find them quite amusing... If I posted them though, I'd probably get sued or something... :-(
And this song... I can't seem to stop listening to this song. It's weird how I am with music, you know? I go through phases. Pretty intense - albeit short lived, phases. Three weeks ago, I would listen to nothing but Angels & Airwaves. In my car, at my job, on my iPod, doing my chores... It was just non stop Angels & Airwaves... About two weeks into my A&A obsession, I for some unexplainable reason, shifted to Sade... Lovers Rock - The entire CD... Again, I would play it non stop. At work all day, in my car on the way home, on my iPod after dinner, and on my laptop when I'd be online... A month and a half ago, it was Jigga. The time before that, David Gray... It's weird... I don't get it. There's no set order or time frame either. I once listened to a CD for two and a half months straight. On repeat...
I've come to find that I don't prefer a particular genre. My appreciation of music seems to vary/depend based wholly on my mood at the time I hear it... Is that weird? God, I hope not... Anyway, I get the feeling that Plain White T's (the band that plays this song) just might be my latest obsession...
Super Sweet Sixteen is on MTV... these kids need to be slapped. Really.... 4:57 AM, I should go to bed... I still want to read a little before I fall asleep....Someone needs to tell Eazy E's daughter that she can-not (yes, that was intentional) rap. Poor child... she swears to God she's sounds great too...
I'm going to bed now... It's 5:09 AM... If I don't do it now, I'll probably sit here till Jacob wakes up, and I'd rather not do that... He'll probably reprimand me or something...
"You stayed up all night again, didn't you mommy?... *shakes his head*... You have to stop doing that, it's NOT healthy..."
Not too long ago, he watched a show about living healthy... He apparently took everything quite literally. I didn't really care till he started pointing out every unhealthy thing he'd catch me doing.
"Not eating breakfast isn't healthy mommy... Even when you're late.." *disapproving scowl*
5:17 AM... Definitely going to bed now.
... I love this song...
I can't sleep... Oddly enough, I don't want to. I'm not doing anything in particular. Playing online scrabble and listening to this song on repeat... (It's the one playing on my page)... Online scrabble is fun... sometimes. Tonight, it's a lot of fun. I don't know why I'm so alert this late... Usually when I'm up at this time, I'm pretty much on 'drone mode', but I seem to be in my element tonight.
I've been 'wikipedia-ring' a lot too. Tonight I've read up on Euclid, Thor, Robert Hanssen, The KGB, and the legal term 'Tort'. I've recalculated the formulas in my both my weekly and monthly budget/expense sheet spreadsheets... I might have gotten a little carried away with that though; I went a little nuts with the conditional formatting tool... I've messed around with a couple of photographs in Photoshop... that was a LOT of fun... As much as I'd like to, I unfortunately can't post any of them online... That sucks 'cause I think most people (with sense of humors of course) would find them quite amusing... If I posted them though, I'd probably get sued or something... :-(
And this song... I can't seem to stop listening to this song. It's weird how I am with music, you know? I go through phases. Pretty intense - albeit short lived, phases. Three weeks ago, I would listen to nothing but Angels & Airwaves. In my car, at my job, on my iPod, doing my chores... It was just non stop Angels & Airwaves... About two weeks into my A&A obsession, I for some unexplainable reason, shifted to Sade... Lovers Rock - The entire CD... Again, I would play it non stop. At work all day, in my car on the way home, on my iPod after dinner, and on my laptop when I'd be online... A month and a half ago, it was Jigga. The time before that, David Gray... It's weird... I don't get it. There's no set order or time frame either. I once listened to a CD for two and a half months straight. On repeat...
I've come to find that I don't prefer a particular genre. My appreciation of music seems to vary/depend based wholly on my mood at the time I hear it... Is that weird? God, I hope not... Anyway, I get the feeling that Plain White T's (the band that plays this song) just might be my latest obsession...
Super Sweet Sixteen is on MTV... these kids need to be slapped. Really.... 4:57 AM, I should go to bed... I still want to read a little before I fall asleep....Someone needs to tell Eazy E's daughter that she can-not (yes, that was intentional) rap. Poor child... she swears to God she's sounds great too...
I'm going to bed now... It's 5:09 AM... If I don't do it now, I'll probably sit here till Jacob wakes up, and I'd rather not do that... He'll probably reprimand me or something...
"You stayed up all night again, didn't you mommy?... *shakes his head*... You have to stop doing that, it's NOT healthy..."
Not too long ago, he watched a show about living healthy... He apparently took everything quite literally. I didn't really care till he started pointing out every unhealthy thing he'd catch me doing.
"Not eating breakfast isn't healthy mommy... Even when you're late.." *disapproving scowl*
5:17 AM... Definitely going to bed now.
... I love this song...
Thursday, July 5, 2007
I'm Cool...
I was standing in line at Stop and Shop today when I bumped into my old friend Matt... Matt. I met Matt about eight years ago when I worked as a telemarketer at dial America in Warwick, and we hit it instantly... His sense of humor matched mine to a T (which is saying a lot, 'cause I'm just weird), so we were constantly giggling about something or the other. His assigned 'call seat' was right next to mine, and we would find ourselves chatting between calls about pretty much everything and anything. He was about 6'5, head full of startlingly red hair, and a face covered with freckles... (Sometimes when things got really slow, we'd attempt to count them - his freckles... Yeah...I doubt that I even need to point it out, but smoking copious amounts of weed was a favorite past time of ours back then).. Basically, you get the gist... He's 'good peoples'..
Anyway, so I bump into Matt today. It was great. If possible, he looks like he's gotten even taller. We do the whole 'catching up' thing... We hug and compliment each other on how ''good you look'' numerous times... We talk over each other excitedly, laugh a little too loud to compensate for the fact that we each feel a little nervous.. Nervous or not though, it's great to see him. We trade email addresses and cell phone numbers... We express surprise that we're both T-Mobile subscribers and make dumb jokes about the fact that we get to talk for free... You know how it is, right? A whole bunch of words get thrown around with very little being said... small talk... All of a sudden, out the blue, he goes:
"Hey, wasn't your birthday in May? The 17th? The big two nine, huh? Wait... Did you get to go to Foxwoods (Casino) for your 21st birthday like you planned? I remember you wouldn't shut up about it!"
Two things strike me as he says this. The first is shock that he remembers my birthday, and the other is this incredible feeling of dismay at the realization that I 'didn't' go to Foxwoods for my 21st birthday like I'd planned to... It had been such a big thing to me too... I try to remember exactly why it was that I didn't go, but nothing comes to mind... (couldn't have been that important then, huh?)...
"No actually", I answer quite slowly... "I didn't end up going"....
"No way!" He yells, "What happened?!"
.... "I don't know...I honestly don't know... I can't remember"
"Well shit happens, right...? don't sweat it... At least you've been, right...? What does it matter when?"
....."Um... dude... You're not going to believe it, but I actually haven't gone yet... I've never been to Foxwoods..." (Feeling more and more like a failure with every word)
"NO WAY!! Monie, it was such a big deal to you!!"
...."I know....." (My heart has sunk so low at this point, I can almost feel it beneath my shoes)
"So what'd you end up doing for your 21st then? Did you get shit faced? Remember how you kept having me promise that I'd come get you if you got too drunk to drive home...?!"
*sigh*... "um... no... no, I didn't get shit faced"....
"WHAT?! What did you do then?!"
"... I don't know... I don't remember... Not only that, I've never gotten shitfaced before... Not once..."... *sigh*
Different, mostly indiscernible looks pass over his face as he's listening to me speak, but the one I pick up on is pity... I can see it on his face that he feels bad for me, and even though DEEP inside me, I know he has no real reason to, I can feel (almost see) myself cross over into defensive mode... I'm talking a mile a minute about my life and things I've accomplished thus far... I show him pictures of my son so he can see how healthy and happy he looks... I tell him about my job.. my apt.. my car... my car payments... my new phone... shit, I even find myself telling him about the food timetable/schedule I've drawn up for Jacob and I for the week... Don't ask why... I don't know...
We talk some more about a bunch of nothing, then we each have to leave... He makes me swear that I'll call him, and/or answer the phone when he calls... I do, we hug, and we each walk to our respective vehicles. I'm watching him out of the corner of my eye hoping to see him headed toward the beat up 92 Accord in the corner... Nope... Matthew climbs into an 06 Infinity truck and drives out the lot... *sigh*.
I sit in my car for a little while, just thinking... All of a sudden, all these memories come rushing back... I remember how... excited I was to be turning 21... How full of life I was... I had all these plans... all these things I wanted to do with/for myself... Things I wanted to experience... places I wanted to go... All of this sounds pretty cliche, doesn't it...? Yeah, I feel that way too...
Driving to go get Jacob, I'm getting more and more depressed. I pull into the parking lot at his daycare center and punch in the security code to get in... As I walk into his class, I see my son standing there talking to his friend Josh. When he sees me, he jumps up and rushes to me...
"Mommy, didn't we go to see Transformers yesterday? You and me? Tell Josh, he doesn't believe me..."
So I did. I told Josh I had taken Jacob to see Transformers yesterday.
"See?!" Crowed my son... "I told you... I have the coolest mom in the world!"
And THAT, ladies and gentlemen, made EVERYTHING better. :-)
Jacob and I leaving to go see Transformers yesterday (7/4)...
PS: THAT MOVIE WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PPS: I love my cousin Buki... I'm aware of how completely random this is... I do though. I love her to death. :-) She left for Jand earlier today, so I'm assuming she's landed already...
Omo, If you read this, IM me or something... I know say na agro carry you reach there... just do small small, abeg... You know say those ibo boys no dey play! LOL
She's going to kill me for putting her business out there. lol...
Anyway, so I bump into Matt today. It was great. If possible, he looks like he's gotten even taller. We do the whole 'catching up' thing... We hug and compliment each other on how ''good you look'' numerous times... We talk over each other excitedly, laugh a little too loud to compensate for the fact that we each feel a little nervous.. Nervous or not though, it's great to see him. We trade email addresses and cell phone numbers... We express surprise that we're both T-Mobile subscribers and make dumb jokes about the fact that we get to talk for free... You know how it is, right? A whole bunch of words get thrown around with very little being said... small talk... All of a sudden, out the blue, he goes:
"Hey, wasn't your birthday in May? The 17th? The big two nine, huh? Wait... Did you get to go to Foxwoods (Casino) for your 21st birthday like you planned? I remember you wouldn't shut up about it!"
Two things strike me as he says this. The first is shock that he remembers my birthday, and the other is this incredible feeling of dismay at the realization that I 'didn't' go to Foxwoods for my 21st birthday like I'd planned to... It had been such a big thing to me too... I try to remember exactly why it was that I didn't go, but nothing comes to mind... (couldn't have been that important then, huh?)...
"No actually", I answer quite slowly... "I didn't end up going"....
"No way!" He yells, "What happened?!"
.... "I don't know...I honestly don't know... I can't remember"
"Well shit happens, right...? don't sweat it... At least you've been, right...? What does it matter when?"
....."Um... dude... You're not going to believe it, but I actually haven't gone yet... I've never been to Foxwoods..." (Feeling more and more like a failure with every word)
"NO WAY!! Monie, it was such a big deal to you!!"
...."I know....." (My heart has sunk so low at this point, I can almost feel it beneath my shoes)
"So what'd you end up doing for your 21st then? Did you get shit faced? Remember how you kept having me promise that I'd come get you if you got too drunk to drive home...?!"
*sigh*... "um... no... no, I didn't get shit faced"....
"WHAT?! What did you do then?!"
"... I don't know... I don't remember... Not only that, I've never gotten shitfaced before... Not once..."... *sigh*
Different, mostly indiscernible looks pass over his face as he's listening to me speak, but the one I pick up on is pity... I can see it on his face that he feels bad for me, and even though DEEP inside me, I know he has no real reason to, I can feel (almost see) myself cross over into defensive mode... I'm talking a mile a minute about my life and things I've accomplished thus far... I show him pictures of my son so he can see how healthy and happy he looks... I tell him about my job.. my apt.. my car... my car payments... my new phone... shit, I even find myself telling him about the food timetable/schedule I've drawn up for Jacob and I for the week... Don't ask why... I don't know...
We talk some more about a bunch of nothing, then we each have to leave... He makes me swear that I'll call him, and/or answer the phone when he calls... I do, we hug, and we each walk to our respective vehicles. I'm watching him out of the corner of my eye hoping to see him headed toward the beat up 92 Accord in the corner... Nope... Matthew climbs into an 06 Infinity truck and drives out the lot... *sigh*.
I sit in my car for a little while, just thinking... All of a sudden, all these memories come rushing back... I remember how... excited I was to be turning 21... How full of life I was... I had all these plans... all these things I wanted to do with/for myself... Things I wanted to experience... places I wanted to go... All of this sounds pretty cliche, doesn't it...? Yeah, I feel that way too...
Driving to go get Jacob, I'm getting more and more depressed. I pull into the parking lot at his daycare center and punch in the security code to get in... As I walk into his class, I see my son standing there talking to his friend Josh. When he sees me, he jumps up and rushes to me...
"Mommy, didn't we go to see Transformers yesterday? You and me? Tell Josh, he doesn't believe me..."
So I did. I told Josh I had taken Jacob to see Transformers yesterday.
"See?!" Crowed my son... "I told you... I have the coolest mom in the world!"
And THAT, ladies and gentlemen, made EVERYTHING better. :-)
Jacob and I leaving to go see Transformers yesterday (7/4)...
PS: THAT MOVIE WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PPS: I love my cousin Buki... I'm aware of how completely random this is... I do though. I love her to death. :-) She left for Jand earlier today, so I'm assuming she's landed already...
Omo, If you read this, IM me or something... I know say na agro carry you reach there... just do small small, abeg... You know say those ibo boys no dey play! LOL
She's going to kill me for putting her business out there. lol...
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Back
I feel like I just woke up from some deep slumber... the past three weeks sped by me with a speed and intensity that left me literally almost breathless and in a daze ... Wow. So much has happened in so little time. I think what makes the events of those weeks even more intense is the fact that I was taken completely by surprise... I think it was this past Friday night that I decided I'd had enough... I paused, took a deep breath and stopped EVERYTHING. Spent the night cuddled with Jacob on the couch watching some random movie...
I've felt a lot better since then... less hassled... less stressed. Anyway, it's 6:41 AM, and I've been up all night... I'm going to bed now, but will post when I get up... whenever that is... It feels good though... to be 'me' again... :-)
Oh... Posted some random pictures today...
I've felt a lot better since then... less hassled... less stressed. Anyway, it's 6:41 AM, and I've been up all night... I'm going to bed now, but will post when I get up... whenever that is... It feels good though... to be 'me' again... :-)
Oh... Posted some random pictures today...
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